Holy Monk aka Pope Ash

singapore.....

2008-05-30T09:31:00.000-07:00

been as rountine as it can be at work, with some events that will captivate me for the rest of my life....

i guess its oni in singapore that we have such a diversified cultural, as i was ordering my hokkien pwan mee in dialect, i was wondering how was it to order in english... SIR, 1 PLATE OF HOKKIEN MEE WITHOUT CHILLI, TAKEAWAY. haix, even though i can bitch about how bad tis place is, somehow theres always something special abt it to make ppl stay on and live. i guess little bits of life that make us stay here and continue to stay on despite the turbulences of the economy. i read across a speak english campiagn. and i was thinkin, WTF man its the lang that makes singapore unique and different from eveyother 1st class countries. We have a muti cultural experience here that will never exist anywhere we go. so i say FUCK SPEAK GOOD ENGLISH, we are who we are.

chilling out wif buddies is kind of gd, we can say things that we seldom say to other ppl, we discuss our future past and present. we have a gd laugh on some stupid things that may seem lame to others but hey we have our fun. things lyk this that keep me going. hope to have more of this gathering =D

.............life........

2008-05-16T04:13:00.000-07:00

where are we all heading?
i will never know the ans, i gues its a one step at a time thingy which im nt gd at. today was my off day which is goiing to be over soon. this job has been nth but splendid, especially the..... =D but ig uess it really open my eyes to lots of things. it may not be in a large corporate world but i somehow get a glimpse of it. people treat people on the looks and they way they present themselves but nt on the person inside. i guess its all true. i guess tis few days after my first blog of the year, i came to think abt my future. to wad i wan to study, wad kind of life i wan to live. seeing office guys, rushing during lunch and going home late, i somehow tink if that is the kind of life i wan. its lyk jumping on the band wagon and letting society take over. today especially i saw a little gal in the mrt wanting to sleep, and when there were a few seats free up she juz laid there, her mother didnt even care and just let the gal be. I muz tink that maybe the mother has so little time spend wif the child that they giv wateva the child wans and think nth of the consequences. theres a chinese saying : No child cant be taught, there is only parents who cant teach. which i believe to be so right.

ic ant say for sure i will be a gd parent in the future but i guess i always try to be one. more often den not parenting is wad we learnt from our parents and we pick up the good points and sometimes the bad points too. haix, thinkin too far again i guess haha but these are things to ponder abt on the way home from work.

......meaning......

2008-05-08T08:08:00.000-07:00

here is place to write my tots and reflections.

starting a new chapter of life, where you reach a point in life where everything seems blurry, things seem so distant. I cant seem to find the things i wan in life, those that i reali wan to pursue. i guess a quarter of my life has pass without i know it, i guess i made mistakes and i cant take them back, how i wish i wud have nvr commit them in the first place....

with no aim in life, how far can one go, i dun know but i dragging throughout the journey... i guess for the past 15 years, things have been arrange for me, wad to study wad to wear, who to meet, wad to do. things were put in place for me to do it. Now, a emptiness fills the air, its where i make the decision. even though a journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step, how we wud ever know the first step is correct??? seeing people around me failing to be what they dream of becoming scares me, wud i be lyk them??? i guess there is a thin line between dreams and reality and sometimes reality crosses that line more often than we like it to. im afraid to make decisions, afraid to make mistakes, afraid to take the plunge, so many things im afraidof, dam its quite impossible to make the perfect decisions in life.....

i hope i will make the right one.....still feeling a sense of emptiness

smile

2007-07-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

smile and the world smiles with you, frown and they shun u

life is such yea, some ppl get all the luck while people are down with it.....
been busy all this while, haix fyp and skool is sucking me dry, need a long extended break....where are holis when u need them? juz found out that booze reali take yr troubles away but they giv u new set of them =p....

some guys are meant for greatness, some are meant to stay in the shadows.........how will she ever know?

bored......

2007-07-06T10:49:00.000-07:00

it seems i haven been blogging yea, thks to those who visit =p. tis week has been hectic and stressful. haiz, if i only wish that i was back in yr1, but then again i would have nvr known u?. Haiz dilema sia, life is full of ups and downs but can the up cover the down?

"Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something."
a nice quote i read today.

.....

2007-06-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

im not sure what can i say for myself....muddle headed or juz being blur. the words juz cant seem to flow out of my mouth yea, i guess im more reserve than i think im. the outer shell maybe hiding something in it, it may look confident on the outside but i guess everyone has got a weakness and a soft spot. i can think i a million excuses not to do something, but i juz cant seem to think of the right words....haiz i guess its my downfall :(
but seriosly, i guess i rate myself pretty lowly on a scale of 1-10 yea...i give people hope but i dun seem to giv myself any.....

2007-06-20T06:49:00.001-07:00

self realising

2007-06-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

Crash and burn.....

self actualisation- im not a smooth talker as i wish i was. i just simply don't understand why cant i sweet talk like some of my frenz man. Haiz i guess im shy when it comes to certain stuff, i simply cant understand myself Arghhhhhh. I guess thats why i failed most of the times, man for the next one my hopes ain't that high. The higher the hopes the more bones you going to break sia......

bejing

2007-06-16T09:15:00.000-07:00

juz came back beijing trip sia, open my eyes to alot of things THANKS DAD & MOM. I guess after tis trip, my perception of people has change considerably and my view of the world and singapore has changed drastically. firstly, china has improved not to the standard of olympics but survivalable. The driving there is scary, siting at the front sit can make balls shrink sia, anyhow cut lane and U turn. Horn oso free wan sia knn haiz wad to do. Secondly is that china is fucking cheap, fucking cheap, si bei cheap sia water, food, clothes, pirated stuff cab fare, wah lao u name it they have it knn......

frustrated

2007-05-24T07:08:00.000-07:00

fucking frustrated...Having a bias teacher now, and not only that he is also my FYP fac. Haiz how to survive sia, he is so getting on my nerves. FUck him la knn, after 2 weeks of trials i can safely say that he is fucking bias against me. he makes my blood boil man, i juz.........
2 words for him: FUCK YOU!!!

yr3

2007-05-21T07:17:00.000-07:00

haven been writing on this stupid ass webby for quite while yea. I wonder who takes the time to fucking read all my crap but i guess i got to vent it somehow. Been a crapy week for me, dam tired and wasted with FYP. It fucking doesn;t help when u have a fucked teacher who doesn't help you and expect a good work. FUCK U man FUCK U. We all dam pissed off with yr attitute and the way u teach man. DO work get C, copy get B WAD THE FUCK !!! Bastard cant even open his eyes and see who are the ones doing all the work u fucking asshole.

the whole evolves....

2007-04-25T05:55:00.000-07:00

lookin around me, people have achieve so much in their life till now...i guess their life resume has lots of interesting to share. well i guess i still living in the old world, living in the shadows....somtimes my mind tends to wonder What IF I'm them? would't it be cool to be them? i still haven found an answer to my destiny or future, i'm still confused on what am i.........

WHO THE FUCK AM I???

2007-03-26T07:45:00.000-07:00

2007-03-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

new toy yea----> C&C3
for those 'cool' people out there, it stands for command and conquer 3 yea! the hottest and newest game in town. knn queue for 2 hrs, better be gd yea. there was lyk 300 ppl at the launch event sia, crowded sia. well thats it for now....chiong ar!!! but the downside is that no matter what i still think of u yea...........

25/3/07

2007-03-25T07:09:00.000-07:00

sudden urge to blog yea, well i guess my toys would be my xbox 360, com, boots and frenz haha. every guyz got toys, it just that when they get attached they sacrifices their toys.....

25/3/2007

2007-03-25T05:37:00.000-07:00

boys and their toys

big boys muz have their toys, whether a car, toy, game or even a shoe. all boyz muz have their toys. it is in our nataure to live for these toys, and our loves ones too but sometimes love ones cant giv the stastifaction that toys giv. imagine giving a gamer a state of the art console, imagine the face and the joy... gals dun get it but men are to toys like gals are to shoes. its universally matched and nothing can take that away....

sat, what can you do on a sat

2007-03-24T08:04:00.000-07:00

saturdays are getting bored, seriously bored. it used to be that everyone look forward to sats to get together and kick some balls. gone where the days where i will come back sore, smelly and satisfied. haiz i will miss my soccer days and buddies WHERE HAVE U ALL GONE TO? i guess sat are meant for people wif a LIFE yea, go out wif frenz or spouse, hang out and chill. i guess im not acusstomed to tis type of life stlye or maybe im haven have suck luck. hope next sat will be better........

nothing is ever right

2007-02-06T00:23:00.000-08:00

haiz nothing is going right for me..
one after another shit is happening and i cant seem to stop it siah, knn si bei sianz liao. oni a few things brigthen up my whole week. bet what lose wad, dam fucking sway luck sia...
finally pass my basic theory test, i tink tts the oni highlight of the week.....

when is this shit going to end

27/1/2007

2007-01-29T17:14:00.000-08:00

What a day was 27/1/2007. first match for kem team and what a match. Well i guess we beat them convincingly 7-4. 4 stupid goals conceeded by me, crap dam fuck up. Moreover Singapore won on penatlties, sia la. Kem team outing, we lost our voices and bonded together. I guess we should have more of this in the future,

superficial crap....

2007-01-14T08:20:00.000-08:00

how open is our society? how can people say they singapore is being more open when theres superficial happening on our streets. haiz, why when people meet for the first time, they need to measure people up. Why must people care about status now? Why when people meet for the first time, things start to pop in their head, lyk the label of clothes, the shoes, the jeans, even the specs. I thought understanding the person inside was more important, apparently i was indeed wrong. Maybe i tasting sour grapes now but i guess ask any ordinary guy who dresses ordinary, walk up a street and ask a pretty gal for her number. COnfirm rejected wan, cause we're ordinary, too ordinary. I guess our inner self gets to hide too much that sometimes we rather paint a false image, a false outer shell so we can get people to talk to us. Haiz, tis trend is obvious, and i personally think its sad. I think we need to find who we are before we make a major change in our lives.

sch.......

2007-01-08T05:23:00.000-08:00

hows sch? i guess its alrite den, quite montonous. haiz, but after 5 weeks my yr 2 will be gone. fast yea? yar, yr 3 is lyk a dark tunnel sia, dunno wad lies ahead. So i guess now is to hold on wad i have.....

New Yr to all

2006-12-31T22:38:00.000-08:00

Finally the new yr is here, ready to start afresh. SOrry to those who i offended in 2006, hope the grudge ends yest.....haha.
Wad a countdown, went to clarke quay wif ql, jaren, yx and gaymond. den gaymond go see gay fireworks. went zouk for countdown...dam my ears are still reeling from the loudness CRAP! had a reali nice time there yea, seeing gals and drunk people. CLubing is to see people, espically those who are drunk, man they're freaking funny. haha

young foriegn punks.....

2006-12-30T05:38:00.000-08:00

some young, rude foriegn punks dunno where they stand in the world. Public field oso dare to claim that the cone belongs to them. WTF man, public field u ass, PUBLIC meaning for all to use. Not for yrself to use, and u claim yr frenz bought it, WTF man yr fren buy for lyk 3 yrs ago liao ar. KNN wana act fierce oso need to have facts wad. Wheres the fucking evidence to lay claim to yr cone. What loseres! haiz spoil my wonderful sat.

If not wad a nice sat...... tml new yr eve

GdBye Kem field

2006-12-30T05:24:00.000-08:00

GdBye Kem Field

You have brought us together, you have made us who we are now, and now you rest till we return. You have seen the ups and downs of us, to you we trust and always respect. Its oni you that have seen us grow, gdbye for now. till we meet again

internet prob....haiz

2006-12-27T09:21:00.000-08:00

************************, not quotable language for the failure of the internet services. wtf man, taiwan earthquake lyk no big deal, 38th president die den fucking big deal. CNN is so into international news man, dam sad to see that people suffering while channal news asia talking about other stuff. haiz, the news casters, what the hell are you guys doing....

christmas

2006-12-24T22:36:00.000-08:00

a time to receieve presents, and a time to indulge in beer and good food. haha, some other people tend to say that its a time for giving and family sharing. Well i guess its both of them its kind of true. i guess christmas is about humility, haha chim words.... haha well got a feast to wack
hey merry christmas

fail, haiz haiz..........

2006-12-22T07:27:00.000-08:00

i freaking failed my basic test, tt suck big time. I oso dunno how i did it man, such a easy test and i failed. Fuck. Sianz, dam sianz la.....

japan pic

2006-12-19T08:21:00.000-08:00

my Holi-and stuff

2006-12-13T03:26:00.000-08:00

Its been a crazy holidays for me yea, went to japan. Well got to say that the people there are friendly and polite but it comes with a price, they're kind of hypocrites. But overrall it was kind of enriching and rewarding. I learned more about the culture den before, taking a tour round japan can be tiring. Moreover the food was like the same, seafood everyday. Kind of sick of seafood, and the iternary needs some amendment, it was like seeing a land of snow and nothing else. But i got to say that snowing is a beautiful sight indeed but the aftermath is like dam dirty. Disneyland was kind of fun, i guess we enjoyed ourselves alot.

Yup, i guess thats all for now. Lots of things going on in my mind- juz wana figured it out........

blog

2006-10-18T03:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes i think to myself, why the hell do i blog. Its not like its number 1 or anything or im some popular guy. Juz a normal guy whos has a blog and theres lots of them around. So why bother blogging. I guess blogging is like an online diary where i vent my anger or any unhappines. Thats all, so here i am venting my unhappines or boredom.
i dun understand when people say; SORRY GUYS I DIN UPDATE. i was thinkin, seriously how many people really read that shit anyway. I admit i was a fool to write it. I guess i say to all those people who write it; SHIT MAN THIS IS YOUR BLOG, WRITE WAD AND WHEN U LYK, SCREW THOSE WHO SCOLD YOU FOR NOT UPDATING!

---> some people are born lucky, some smart, some handsome/pretty, most of us are born normal. some of us think that being smart or handsome we can fit in, i guess its those people who are smart, handsome, lucky that should try to fit in to the 'normal' circle. BE YOURSELF

Writing bull shit that no one bother to read.

fucking haze,

2006-10-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

the haze aint getting better, dam the people who set alight the forest. It looks like that will not be any clear skies this few days. Played soccer despite the haze, haha was monitering the PSI dam closly until drop den go play. Dam smoky smelly and dry, my throat dam dry now. Sianz cant go out to walk walk nor any place for tt mater.

people, how much do we understand them

2006-10-02T07:07:00.000-07:00

people, how many people really understand another person. i think we cant fully understand people, even if they're our closest relatives. a lot has been going since sem 2 has started. i guess my class is alrite, getting to know them a little bit at a time. the subjects, i'm unsure if i can do well but fuck it, giv it a shot. dunno la. actually i oso dunno wad to post la, juz crap here and there but maybe im blogging juz for the sake of typing yea.

life, nothing much, people

2006-09-18T09:09:00.000-07:00

nothing much happen to me, guess my life is stagnent. i guess i can lead normal ppl life. haha or its just the words of a single guy. haha sometimes i dunno what are why goals in life are? what are the things that really make me tick? i guess there are only a few.... i guess i done a quick glance and maybe juz maybe abt 65% of my frenz are single yea! haha and kem team make up most of it. LOL we place so much emphasis on soccer during weekends that we all forgot to ask for a date. way the go guys, haha ! maybe tts why we're still single, weekends kana book liao haha. Soocer craze people are hard to find soccer craze gals......

so any soccer loving gals out there, listen. if you're free come down to kem feild next to the mrt on sats ard 4pm. we start kicking i guess 2 weeks lata. i'm taking 1 for the team yea!!

sick, tekong, life

2006-09-13T21:57:00.000-07:00

been sick since tues, life sucks when you're sick and miss a soccer match. Went to tekong on tuesday, gaining stupid CE pts. Ate the fucking army rations, knn tts why im sick. dam the army rations. NVM, den midnight go AnE sianz. Hate being sick!
tried out the rifle simlulator, it was fun but it made me thinking. We can shoot countless bullets in practice but how ready are you to take a man life when the time comes. I guess i will never be ready to kill another man, even though firing a rifle is appealing, i guess i will freeze in front of a live target. But in times of war, i guess morals doesn't count, BE KILLED OR KILL thats the motto soldiers live by. I would rather fight a war that is directly connected to my country den go fight a war that is few thousand miles away.

Qoute of the day: Nobody will know if he/she can live through his/her next birthday.

vacation....

2006-09-10T22:09:00.000-07:00

sianz, juz came back from malaysia, makan for 3days non-stop. siaoz liao put on a lot of weight haha. need to excersise......

my heart is floating in the wildernest, i'm not sure what i want, i not sure what is my goals....

people who made a difference....

2006-09-04T19:27:00.000-07:00

many people have left their imprint on the face of the earth...most of them has pass on but they will be remebered. Ghandi, mother threasa and most recently steve irwin. They will not be forgoten in the near future but instead honored and remebered. Lets us not fogot what they have done to enlighten us the plight of this world.

the world lost a nature conservative...

2006-09-04T09:42:00.000-07:00

steve irwin brought the plight of crocs to the whole world, at the same time make us aware that some other animals are in danger too. too bad he lived too short to his work take center stage, died while doing something he loved was maybe the best way to pass on to god. May his family carry on his work and god bless all of them.

kem team bbq

2006-09-03T07:57:00.000-07:00

haha, played soccer on sat scored a goal sianz sia. Lost quite miserably but we fought back yea....pictures funny

rain rain rain rain.....

2006-08-31T09:23:00.000-07:00

raining non-stop, sianz. rain so much knn enough to feed the whole singapore liao. when check-up, improving slowly la but can play soccer liao. Ha have been wanting to do that a long time liao. i think thats all ba. slpzzz

a day......

2006-08-30T06:45:00.000-07:00

a day of... undescrible emotions. SOmtimes you dunno what to feel, had the whole house to myself, at last. Went to tm to walk, bought some movies, note books bla bla. Started to rain went home, drop my hp in the taxi, saw the taxi number 9689U, transcab. You mofo, not honest fagg. Nvm my hp was lost, irony is i felt no anger seriously the mofo shit was jkin. I felt as i felt everyday, nth. True the contacts in there are hard to get by again but i guess its ok den cause i not that attached to my hp as SOME people. I can live without hp for a day, week mabye 2. haha
Spending more money on hp again sianzzz

sianz, sianz, sianz

2006-08-29T03:22:00.000-07:00

3 days of doing nothing, since sunday sia......
yest yx and ql come my hse chiong middle earth II, lol yx hook la den go suntec walk walk see ball. a person comment that why kem team no money issit, no ball, to the person: FUCK LA U ALL DUN WAN PAY DEN BUY FOR WAD. Today went up wifyx and ql again go simlim walk walk see game, harddisk, ram. YX gd luck in saving up. dam bored......

soccer.....

2006-08-26T09:13:00.000-07:00

yea finally went to play soccer after a long long long absence, skills lost and was dam freaking lously sia sianz. If not for tis.... i would have played wif KEM team. haha kind of miss soccer sia, everytime look at a empty pitch, will think of the lads. Dint play much today, had cramps, dam freaking cramps taking my soul away sia, freaking painful. Limp all the way home, haha juz in time for dinner. went to watched liverpool, den ql came haha watched the manutd match together. Kind of boring sia, manutd was not their usual form....

nuring a limp adn hope eveything goes smoothly...

thanks mom.....

2006-08-25T20:09:00.000-07:00

haha went to collect my jeans from my levis, thanks mom thanks for my birthday present. Some of u may eb thinking what the fuck i want a jeans. Well its more pratical den any fucking thing, and it can last lol. Went to my routine excerise, i swear im lyk automatic going into excerise mode every other day sia, lyk becoming a excerise geek.

a day of excerise and fun.....

2006-08-23T19:35:00.000-07:00

dam sleepy now, slept at 5am and woke at 10am. Juz cant shake off the early morning call from school yet, hope will be able to sleep lata.... yest went to the gym den swam, dam exhausting sia, den went to raffles city to meet my mom. Had a wonderful lunch haha at some healthy stall, well so long nvr had a nice lunch wif her liao haha. Den went to see my jeans, cant freaking find a right pair sia sianz, den went to look things for my dad...bought the produces and in the name of the father
the producer okok oni la
in the name of the father dam nice dam dunno wad

im losing it....

2006-08-22T07:18:00.000-07:00

sem 1 yr 2 came quite sudden, or shoudl i say fast.Maybe i was not ready for yr 2 but i feel that this sem has been lyk a catapult ride for me. As the day came to an end, everybody was bidding goodbye, i sat there and looked at their faces, it was like yesterday that we had introduced ourselves.I was kind of lost, the class disbanded and i did not anticipate it,i guess its part of life where you will feel lost. While going home,i was thinking what are the days we spent together and it maybe 16 weeks but it just seems like a week, maybe sometimes i need to stand still and observe the world spining around me. Times passes too quickly for me to enjoy or take note. I was thinking of if i graduate, i will be even more lost, losing the shelther of education where 1 mistake is ok to a job where is must be perfect.

i'm quickly losing the plot.......
cant keep track of time...........

time just fades away in to the unknown........

return of the bus auntie...

2006-08-21T05:34:00.000-07:00

the story goes litatt, i was coming back from school on my favorite 168, 3 gals talking relativly loudly next to my sit. From woodlands to tampines, upon reaching tampines the auntie sitting behind be yelled at the 3 gals to shut up, auntie complain her ear drums spoil liao and auntie keep repeating. Showdown, the word siaoz juz flew lyk water sia dam freaking funny.
To: auntie listen radio la, public bus leh cannot talk meh, you care what your ear drums spoil liao blame people knn. sianz
story of the day

finally, the red devils everybody reconigse

2006-08-20T07:37:00.001-07:00

finally, manutd showed a worthy results of their emense support from the supporters. Manutd performance was fanatansic, 5-1 to fulham shiok ar. Rooney and ronaldo may be had much partnership in the match but well when they got together they produced results. Saha, ronney, ronaldo, what can i say, furthermore Erva, what a top-class performance, the clearing passes and runs. And not forgetting Ole gunner, the comeback kid, hasn't played a full game since 3 yrs ago. Hope smith can come back.

finally, the red devils everybody reconigse

2006-08-20T07:37:00.000-07:00

Let it be-Beatles

2006-08-16T19:35:00.000-07:00

Let it be-Beatles

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, ....

feeling......

2006-08-16T06:17:00.000-07:00

I feel like im living the worse week ever. Some how i feel depress for nothing, i feel empty and nothing to look forward to. Sianz well i survived 2 accidents, firstly a glass panel falling behind me, secondly i got cramps while swiming. Lucky my father was looking out for me.
Thank you, i may not thank you enough but i got to say that you're doing a good job. Somtimes i don;t know how important you are but i guess you're everywhere, where creation is you are there.

movie freak,game freak.....

2006-08-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

sem1 is coming to a end, sad =( haha class E25H haha the durians and the rojak. Power class sia, cs session, dota session, tower of defence, need for speed...... the game freak class.....
recently im a movie freak, haha buying movies after movies and it seems nvr enough. I got to stop sianz, but haha kind of addicted to movies. Serials too, the OC, everybody loves raymond season 3,4. I juz love everyboday loves raymond, dam freaking funny, scastic jokes haha
too all the peeps taking their exams, i wish them luck yea, especialy hendrick, GD LUCK TO YR As

when everything goes wrong.........

2006-07-07T07:21:00.000-07:00

my life since 4/28/2006(last entry) has not been great, i guess i hit a rough patch if my year. Feeling quite low now yea, tons of problems, wif sch, health, fucking everything.

When you reach the bottom, theres no company.....

in tis world alone...

2006-04-28T03:04:00.000-07:00

in tis word alone, standing on the axis of the moving things, how lonely can one be. Have u ever sat at a corner and think abt yr past, tink abt the future and the present, do we ever have time to think for ourselves? In this fast pace society we call earth where it never stop spining. Have u ever stand anywhere and observe how life past us so that we never got the time to enjoy it? Do we have time for GOD? It seems lyk 24 hrs is too little to do anything, but how much time do u want? How long a day u wan, where every hour past we get tired.
Sometimes human can be lonely, no matter how many frenz or family members each have, there is bound a time in their life they feel lonely. Maybe thats guys lyk me wan to find a gf. Maybe the reason to findin one maybe how we deal with boredom.
2nd week of sch : it hasn't been the best of weeks but not the worst too. Almost average, i dunno wadz missing but yea ALMOST AVERAGE.

"Whoever receives you receives me, and whoever receives me receives the one who sent me. "

Dreaming...

2006-03-27T01:09:00.000-08:00

Is dreaming gd? i wonder? well dreaming helps us get away frm reality but for how long?Everyone dreams of being rich, wealthy or having a great partner, right? Somehow our dreams are some wad our goals in life, but mostly it is a long term or maybe hard to reach goal, but e still dream right. It brings us up to cloud nine but when reality sets in, BAM, fall lyk a elephant on a tree. It is hard to pick up our pieces and go on, most people who fail have been mouring their failure till they die. WHy u may ask? I'm clueless, but i can tell its not hard. By saying all these is juz my fingers doing the toking, but the truth is there are lots of factor to consider, the person's pride, dignity, peoples views ......

Society lyk ours are very conscious of our face as in the way people view us. No matter how we change, theres bond to be segaratiion, 1 certain type of people will stay wif that certain type of people. Racical discrimnation is not an issue anymore is this century of ours. Its abt the person's intellengence, people tend to call slow-learners reatrd r dumb. Its sad that e brand them lyk branding a cow as it will stay wif them foreva. Theres nth they can do abt it!

Tis week hasn't been going my way, well 1st week fo yr 2. Still need to formilarisle wif my classmates and the environment. The stress is present even in the 1st week. But come to think of it, why always think that you are the worse as they're people who r living their last week on this earth. Comparing is seeing how fortunate we are to be living in a society thats gun-free. Yes, i hear americans complaining abt the freedom of speech but what does it do to the country. Well for one, theres no TRUE news right as all the news agencies wans to be the jucier therefore adding a lot of "ingrediets". How abt guns, well at least the people here feel safe walkin on any roads or street and the cops need not worry if im going to be shot.

i duuno why i like u, its somthing abt u, i juz can tell. hoping dreamin and wondering

disappearin act

2006-03-16T06:17:00.000-08:00

yup, im finally blogging. Some of my frenz say tt i fell off the earth these past few days. Well actually, i was becuming a tv addict. TV is such a fun thing when u have little time watch it, TV is such a fuckin bore.
Lots of things happend during my disappearance,
1. Guy point middle finger at me
2. Scolded by a woman on the train for no apparent reason
3. X box 360 is OK oni la
4. Free suttle from city hall to suntec, or city hall to marina square
5 Boots is reali cheap at WHY PAY MORE?
6. Bought boots(totalissimo)
7. Mac's milkshake is not bad leh

Stupid right, mountain tortise that i found out some things so late. Haha, maybe im a late bloomer or a No-bloomer

CHalEt

2006-03-08T05:33:00.000-08:00

Yup, juz came bac fm chalet. well shagged of course but fun. Get to know some of my EX-classmates better and get to disturb some. haha some may call it a majong chalet but i tink is a bonding wan.
Will upload the pics at a later date
Night

Congrats those who pass yr 1

2006-03-04T08:06:00.000-08:00

YAY! LETS CELEB TIS MOMENT! POLY YR 1 IS OFFICALY GONE. haha HAPPY GRADUATION TO ALL G0204 PEEPS! well a yr has passed and it was dam fast, lookin back at sem1, some of the dorky n stupid things i did(childish sia) Sem2 was a blaz, spendin time wif good frenz who hadthe same interest(khai). Hope the chalet would be fun!

Question for tot:
How much is enough?
Well we all want somemore den wad we ever have, we better lappys, better handphones, better ear phones. But how much is enough? Remember tt when we were abt 7 or 8, we wanted our own phone, computer and eveything, look at us now, we have wad we wanted durin those childhood days. Should't we be rejoicing, instead we're asking for somemore. So we need to ask ourselve how much is enough?

SCHOOL ENDS ERIC N SHOU MING GONE :D

2006-03-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

Happy Sad and relieve. Finally Yr 1 gone, rejoice peeps. No more black face fac and nerds. HAHA my computing fac is a fucking faggot la, come in class black face, CLASS YOU ALL SAY IM BIAS THIS ARE THE STASTISTIC. WTF knn more n more numbers or letters sia. COmputer geeksssssssss

Class Chalet coming . HAHA KHAI I.....

i miss u

2006-02-27T04:55:00.000-08:00

how life changes everything, its so easily to forgot how much u miss them with yr busy life. When i'm alone, that's when they come in to my mind, how i miss their voice, their touch and their food. Its been 8 mths since they were gone, but they will be in our hearts forever. Thinkin back on how i dreaded to go to their house, but i would pay a million bucks to hear their voice again. It hurts inside to know that they're gone.

Hi Granpa and Granma

numbness goes away, pain comes to play

2006-02-17T03:17:00.000-08:00

Fuck it still hurts sia! For those who is still clueless, i had 2 wisdom teeth plucked frm me, yup all those wisdom is gone. Sat in the chair for 1 1/2 hrs sia until my butt hurts, had 6 injections to numb my lower jaw, 3 for the upper jaw. Apparently i had a "hooked" lower wisdom tooth which is hard to take out. Knn i could feel the pulling effect frm 2 teeths sia, the dentist juz literaly pull those suckers out. The aftermath is now la, pain, no food hardly any nutrients. Well going to lose weight the unhealty way now, by not indulging myself. Sianz....

China Black

2006-02-10T10:07:00.000-08:00

Ha ha Karen got Punk'd. LOL, sry i need to collect results, can let us off at 2pm pls pls pls. With my great acting and tone, she relanted. Went home changed, China Black here i come..... My expectations were a bit high and i was hoping the place to be big. WTF so fucking small, not even half a football field, sianz den they say need to open hard liqour to sit, was like knn we come here is too drink not get drunk.

Only the dancing made it worth while, for me i guess. Gay wif almost all the guys HAHA, sry JJ Kian Meng Justin. HELLO winnie's fren HAHA. Well her fren attracted the most attention haha. All the guys look at me when i dance wif her sia haha. The concrete parapet was fun, can get fresh air and see the crowd. NVR GO CHINA BLACK ON A FRI jam pack like fucking sardines or worst, smoke is in the air di di di smoke is in the air...... SO smoky sia sianz. TTS the climax of my life till now.

Hmm hope to do it someday again.

Saturday

2006-02-04T18:11:00.000-08:00

Soccer was fun except for many hippcups. Yi xian was on form. Well sometimes u got to give a guy credit. I feel like i'm getting lously at the game, Sianz. On the way home waited at the taxi quene line sia. My turn liao den when i walking to the taxi, this lady just walked past me and opened the door. WTF sia knn i waited for 10 mins, lucky i quite awake la, EXCUSE ME U NEED TO QUENE. & FUCK U(in the mind la).

Dirty singaporeans or humans, why cut quene for wad unless u pregenat or sick. Moreover at buffet, u can see some famlies piling up all the food, 8 plates for 4 ppl and all mountains. Can a person eat so much, wah lao some got some ppl take n take den dun wan to eat. KNN i wan to eat oso dun haf.

School

2006-02-01T21:13:00.000-08:00

SIanz, so bored. What a fast CNY. BTW HAPPY CNY TO ALL OF U. SO bored tts why im here, if not i cant be bothered. Ppl everyday update sia, where got time, i mean got better things to do right like watch tv play games or for some watch xXx. School food is getting boring and tasteless FUCK i bet i ate everything 2-3 times sia knn. CUlture is a waste of my time, find out what the fuck is gender.

Counting hong baos and winnings.

CHEERS

MANUTD

2006-01-22T10:01:00.000-08:00

1-0 HAIL THE RED DEVILS! HAIL RIO! HAIL GIGGS! Now is 2.20 am, blogging at the request of QL and myself. SUCK ON TT ALL LIVERPOOL FANS!!!. I becoming a Manutd fan freak, haha watch almost all the games this yr. I swear, today's match, manutd did not deserve to win, they're giving out passes lyk free gifts sia. 1st half was fuck up la, but the defence held. 2nd half, almost amlmost goal, but who saved?? RIO. WHO SCORED??? RIO. To slience all liverpool fans, u are not the best in the world suckers. Manutd field a 2nd team and can beat u, goes to show tt manutd is better den u.

Going to get my sleep soon, 3 1/2 hrs to be excat. Mum is nagging all the way, cant take it, knn u got eyes to see wan a not, i did the hsework den u critise me on wad i dint do. WTF sia knn u dun expect me to run the whole hse right.

Cultural today, hope it is fun but need to do interview sia, fuck too tired

Cheers

Tooth

2006-01-18T23:08:00.000-08:00

Fuckin wisdom tooth, knn so ****** pain. Doc say need to take out. WTF u tink i lyk surgery, sianz, in my whole life been to 1 surgery and it is quite scary. Getting yr tooth pluck out is freaky scary, had a few bad experience. I was 10 sia, went to the dent for a loosen teeth. Fuck he juz use "pliers" to pull the fucking teeth out. Screamin lyk mad, i swear if i ever see the doc again, hes dead!!!.

Now having class, knn my team oni 2 ppl and the fucking fac expect me to present. What a faggot, and he expects me to know everything, knn i din screw his head liao hes shud be happy. Using the laser pointer lyk we have a diease sia knn. Sianz, no mood to study put bo pian. Integration, graphs fucking numbers, all are numbers asshole.

Soccer tis sat at 9am. Be there!
cheers

SIA club

2006-01-16T06:04:00.000-08:00

Sianz, woke up in the morning, planning to cut hair. House work, sianz everyday need to sweep n mop till i..... Went to SIA club at noon, tried the gym. Dam fun when ur all alone and no one to care how you move, talk, drink, excerise, most impt that they don't care if i look all right. Did muscle toning, i shud lose some weight, getting fatter n fatter sia, sianz. Lata went to pool, met Lesise, nt a bad guy. Haha, stewards nowadays earn peanuts (<$60,000) sia. Pity them sia, work so hard got little acknowledgment sia. Talked abt SIA pool team, haha all above 30s sia, me leh 18 only how to go in sia. Thinkin of buying own cue stick, 100-300 bucks, wow where do i get so much cash sia.
Cheers

New boots

2006-01-15T06:47:00.000-08:00

Life

2006-01-15T06:41:00.000-08:00

What is life without a sport? What is life without soccer? Soccer is a major part of my life, every week looking forward to sat. Kembangan team rox, a bunch of talented and jokers put in a team and u have us. Haha, people used to write us off till we beat the living crap out of them. Well even though, my knees, wrist, fingers and back hurt. Isnt saving a 1 on 1 ball very satisfying, it can overcome any pain or cancer for that matter. Haha, you all think that i'm the spokesman of soccer ar, haha but it is really true. Ask any player and he will tell u that scoring goals is better than sex (man city). Well unless, unless the gal is HOT HOT HOT, sizzling HOT babe, than different la. Wore my new boots, a bit uncomfortable la, studs so high. Fuck i think i bought the wrong boots but nvm la, tahan for a yr or 2.
Cheers

poly life

2006-01-13T05:02:00.000-08:00

It kind of suck my yr1 going to end, miss my sem1. Remember the times when we play cs the whole day, man that was fun. G0204 is a class where we clicked straight away, maybe we had a common interest but we made a effort to click. Yea i really like my classmates a lot, haha maybe for one only. Raining, the only thing that happen in my life that is interesting. Playing games 24/7, what to do, keep raining so boring sia.

I don't know if i love u a not, but i'm nt sure i don't too.

jesscia alba!!!!

2005-11-09T18:01:00.000-08:00

what would say to tiger......beer!!! why not
yea why not man, jessica alba rox , drooling........... sch sucks, as usual, my computing faci is so fucking ugly. Come in with a du lan face wtf sia, how to teach wif a fuck up face, dunno la him, hes a faggot, give me a F wtf. Ur irresponsoble, u didnt show interest in yr work, u did not make a effort at all. Hello, r u deaf when i ask u all the ques. Sian, so bored now, curse of emily rose is quite nice , haha planning to watch it. Sch is all about studying, why so sian sia, dying here someone help me arrrrrrrrr
soccer on sat is as usual, we need to train more, we need a strong midfield ok guys
cheers =)

SOCCER

2005-11-07T22:15:00.000-08:00

GLORY GLORY MANUTD , AND THE REDS GO MARCHING IN
yea mourinho IN YR FACE SUCKA, stay up late to watch the match haha, but so energytic in the morning haha. Was so happy, shit didnt actually saw the goal, saw the replay. Haha, my stomach was the cause of tt, haha but a very nice match. Manutd had HEART when they played chelsea and thats what their famous for. Qing liang, you shud treat me to a meal hor, live commentry leh. School is so bored now, blogging in the middle of presentation, haha so common but don't get caught la. POA sucks sia, wat cash flow, expenses and god knows what else. SIan sia, sch is so sian sian sian hahaha.
This sat soccer confimr Manager says so=)

woman,women

2005-11-02T10:17:00.000-08:00

hollywood films are misleading people sia, wah lao not everybody gets the gals sia, i dunno why even the most stuck up person oso get the gal, Haiz so dfferent in real life where average joes like me and you are left stranded in the wilderness. Aiya love is so troublesome, why not god match make us, so much easier, maybe with freedom in choosing comes headaches, sleepless nights, countless time thinking of "what ifs". What if i was with her, how would things be different. We men would always think what ifs, how about what am i going to do. I admit, i sometimes think what ifs, but we also need to move on, get on with our lives. A fren close to me or i tot so is now so engross with what ifs, i really don't know how to help him. Ego is men's biggest enemy, ego can take over our lives, the way we talk to people. Ego is also essiential to men but also we need to let go. We cant have the whole world.

Someimes i know i'm not good enough for u, why did you need to ask "why u like me"

Mixed emotions

2005-10-25T05:11:00.000-07:00

Proud to be a part KEMBANGAN UNITED, haha won our 1st match. I'm proud of u guys. Weekend was kind of a blast but it pass so quickly. School sucks what to do , need a papaer to succeed in life. Sianz, today pon for the 2 time hahaha, is not i dun lyk the course, is that sometimes the facilitators can be dam long winded or bo chap, dam pek chek liao. Hahaha so long nvr blog liao, sry peopple, i kind of lazy, oso got school work. I just found out that sometimes when you're lonely or bored, you wished to have a girlfriend, but at times you will find it troublesome to have one. Delima right, the world is full of all this things, it is how we look at it, from my point of view, i think that having a gf would be great but i cant seem to get one haha, I know its me hahaha

Men sometimes say the wrong things at the wrong time, but is not that they don't care, is that they care too much.

Sadden yet rejoicing.

2005-09-20T09:29:00.000-07:00

Hey guys sry man nvr blog for so long liao. A lot of things just zoom past. Firstly i like to say a big THANK YOU to all L0105 peeps, i will miss all our dirty tok n racist jokes. ROCK ON!!! Next a veri sad ting, my granpa just died yest 3am. Its a pity to see his health wither away, but i'm happy tt he found the lord n now is at the lord's banquet. alleuia. Wish both of my grandparents eternal peace in heaven and may they guide over us in our everyday steps.

Soccer

2005-09-11T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hi, peeps who r readin my blog. wat a weekend sia, haha yest was fun, soccer on the muddy field. Let me giv u a run down of yest events.
2.40 reach kem mrt, go tze shuan hse , standing outside of his gate in the rain, knn the guy still there to sleep haha in the end is his mother open the gate for us. wait till 3.30 den stop rainin, go the field meet gjh n kh. haha den started to rain agin sianz sia. Go play void deck soccer, so long nvr play liao lost touch. ard 4 den go kick on real field ahah, dam muddy but we had fun n laughter. Sad ts is our last match b4 exams hope to orgainse another b4 nov. haha i testin out photo buket so be patient

FAITHFULL

2005-09-09T07:47:00.000-07:00

Haiz, poly life is so stress yet so slack. juz cant find the word to discribe it, exhalirating mayb, or boring but it a new experience. HEY GUYS OF L0105 FRENZ FOR LIFE(kind of cheesy sia). Well so long nvr bolg liao so decided to giv tis blog a new life once more sia. Sry to the peeps who gto nth betta to do than read my blog, i now i veri ancient liao but giv me time man. Now having holi mans, dam slack, everyday go out n play but some how the feeling of freedom is not there sia. Work a little, haha mayb juz for 1hr15 min n get 9 buks oni (sad).

Went out wif ql, decided to buy manu jersey but den again waste of $$$ cause why bother. HaHa, sry ql make u come to city hall n peu mi, haha u look dam funny in tt business suit sia. Den after tt went to buy stud for my now sollowen ear haha. Gd notez peeps n hope to blog soon, mayb tml

cheers =)

am i destined to be in np....

2005-04-01T18:33:00.000-08:00

Sry guys, so long nvr blog liao. haha kinda of lazy sia, yest went bac to school wif jared to see np how Wah lao dam slag lor knn wish my cadets days was so slag. the unit can say is indiscipline sianz must decide unitl 5 april to go bac. starting poly soon veri soon 18 april. man i haven palyed enough dam haha on last wed i got highest frag in cs haha so funny ql wasted 1 mag oso cant get me haha den yx oso a joker when shoot him say not ready not fair . haha guys lets have a duel again haha awp map ok? quite excited , mon cant wait to get a new notebook but kinda waste $$$ sia 1600 no joke sry mom n dad.

mayb after tt day i finally realised tt i was all along the dummy who refused to believe but i have awoken lyk my blog foreva happy hope u will find the one in yr life

aLL tiME lOw

2005-01-23T05:47:00.000-08:00

HahaHa i suddenly hate my fucking work, i dunno mayb i dun hav e mood 2 work. sumtimes u wonder why is life treating u so badly, why everingting u do always fails, wtf r u send here u do? only GOD noes e answer, hav faith in him says e priest, but man hav limitations. u noe all those fairy tales wich says " they live happyily ever after" wat bull sia where got such ting, if got den wat e fuck is divorce, break up, death, why need a god. life is nvr smooth sailing but sumtimes we wonder if e boat we r on can last thru e storm i wonder...

wow

2005-01-21T07:51:00.000-08:00

today have been a rollar coaster ride 360 degrees. haiz back 2 does floating aimless lifestyle, mayb i ainet cut out 4 love lolx mayb priesthood or brotherhood lolx u nvr noe when u r called? Felt lyk shit today no mood 2 work summore do lien FUCK IT den jam FUCK IT its 1 of does days where u feel lyk doin nth. bought Battle of Britain after much hesitation, e show is quite ok but shd hav more action... tt practically end my day.. n to all my malay frenz selamat hari raya haji

Hahaha

2005-01-20T05:34:00.000-08:00

shu ku stupid bakar bodoh
1st time reali sit down n learn abt html lolx hahaha work work work wtf nth but work aiya sIanz lien thrower same ting tml wtf change lah hiaz reali miss seeing her hope she fiting nicely in to her new job

mary had a little lamb

2005-01-05T06:53:00.000-08:00

mary had a little lamb

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2005-01-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

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